It's become difficult to cultivate Christianity in my two younger children. I can't take them to church like other parents take their kids. I tried once. They got restless and even confused especially standing up and sitting down several during the service. My boys thought we were leaving when I stood up at the beginning of worship.
Why can't I take my children to church with me and have them by my side during worship? My nine-year-old with his medical condition was uncomfortable and actually had to eat during the service. I feel like I'm torturing them putting them in a situation that they're not familiar with.
Meanwhile some of the few people (friends and acquaintances) who know about my nine-year-old's health have shown some level of respect or consideration that I've gone to church every Sunday for over two straight years. Some even see this as a way to "save" their souls.
A pastor even called me this past Friday to check on me. She asked me about my nine-year-old's health. It was strange for me to get that call. After all she's practically a stranger and yet she's worried about my sick child. She even mentioned that she admired me for taking care of my sick little boy. After all, it's my obligation to care for him and I gladly do it.
Showing posts with label sunday. Show all posts
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Sunday, October 17, 2010
Monday, February 9, 2009
my sunday mornings
It's weird going out every Sunday to church regardless of the weather. In the past, I wouldn't have gone anywhere on a Sunday morning, much less if snowing or raining. Now I wouldn't miss it.
Now that I don't have a mobile phone with internet access (cutting down expenses), my commute is a little different, not too mention mundane. I can only write and save texts in my new phone (a BlackBerry 8320) while riding the bus or subway. Then to access this text, I need to mount the phone as a removable disk on another system and copy over the text (as I'm doing right now). Perhaps this last piece of information was a bit too technical (a bit too geeky).
Nonetheless I'd continue taking my early morning Sunday commute as mundane, dull or simply boring as it may be. In return, I enjoy my time at church studying and listening to the word of God (currently three hours). The drawback is being part of the church community (group of strangers) as I'm still learning how to act like most of these (sane) humans.
Without a doubt, my human interaction has always been limited and awkward due to my mental condition (for example, understanding when to thank someone out of proper social accepted customs rather than feeling it). The latter explanation doesn't mean that I don't have other deep human emotional interaction with others, in other words friends. Some of them have known me since I was a child and have accepted me as strange as I've always been. Many of my newer friends are as weird as I having gone through some of the same bad experiences as I've had.
Surprisingly enough, most of my christian friends are not church goers, just like I was. Does this last argument mean that I might be better than my friends? Of course, I'm not in any way. I'm merely looking for an excuse to bring them to FAPC or any other christian church.
As I mentioned before (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2009/01/selling-my-faith.html), I see religion as a means of therapeutic relaxation for the mind and soul (inner peace). If a person can achieve grace and eternal salvation (heaven) through that inner peace, so be it.
Now that I don't have a mobile phone with internet access (cutting down expenses), my commute is a little different, not too mention mundane. I can only write and save texts in my new phone (a BlackBerry 8320) while riding the bus or subway. Then to access this text, I need to mount the phone as a removable disk on another system and copy over the text (as I'm doing right now). Perhaps this last piece of information was a bit too technical (a bit too geeky).
Nonetheless I'd continue taking my early morning Sunday commute as mundane, dull or simply boring as it may be. In return, I enjoy my time at church studying and listening to the word of God (currently three hours). The drawback is being part of the church community (group of strangers) as I'm still learning how to act like most of these (sane) humans.
Without a doubt, my human interaction has always been limited and awkward due to my mental condition (for example, understanding when to thank someone out of proper social accepted customs rather than feeling it). The latter explanation doesn't mean that I don't have other deep human emotional interaction with others, in other words friends. Some of them have known me since I was a child and have accepted me as strange as I've always been. Many of my newer friends are as weird as I having gone through some of the same bad experiences as I've had.
Surprisingly enough, most of my christian friends are not church goers, just like I was. Does this last argument mean that I might be better than my friends? Of course, I'm not in any way. I'm merely looking for an excuse to bring them to FAPC or any other christian church.
As I mentioned before (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2009/01/selling-my-faith.html), I see religion as a means of therapeutic relaxation for the mind and soul (inner peace). If a person can achieve grace and eternal salvation (heaven) through that inner peace, so be it.
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