Monday, February 23, 2009

a God who wants to be praised all the time

I borrowed this line from my friend Sam. Sometimes we all in one way or another outgrow the faith that we were brought up with. One day you're that little Christian boy or girl doing anything to be a perfect Christian. The next day you're almost an adult who had lost that innocence, that purity and that blind trust in humanity and/or the church that you once had. You more often see eye to eye with evil than with good. You start wondering where all that was good went to. Of course, part of you feels betrayed and the other stays vigilant to avoid being hurt or deceived again. That lack of trust pushes your religious beliefs aside as you lose confidence in the church and its people.

It's taken me over two decades to open up and try to trust again. So far, the community and clergy at FAPC have helped me regain some of that trust. It's gotten to the point where one of the pastors knows me by name and is a Facebook buddy.