medications and church

I take heavy medication every morning to start my day, one pill of this and a couple of that. Being born with bipolar disorder is like being born a demon trying to be good like Hellboy (http://www.hellboy.com/) or Spawn (http://www.spawn.com/comics/series.aspx?series_id=1). I've learned to avoid situations that my trigger me off. I've learned to avoid my inner demons and control myself, but at times I come short. At church I feel in peace, at ease. I feel good about myself, almost safe. Ten minutes after stepping out into the real world, I can get psychotic.