My left arm hurt again last night (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/10/knocking-on-heavens-door.html) so much that I kept waking up. At least I didn't feel chest pain. I'm afraid of falling asleep and not waking up -- just like my maternal grandmother died. As of late, I've felt that I'll die of a heart attack some day.
If I had died last night, who'd care for my two little boys? I can't die and leave them behind without a provider.
