It's hard to justify one's opinion. I keep going back to the lack of faith and interest that we as Christians have in our own faith and God (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/10/no-utopia-then-how-much-more.html). Maybe I should take a break from beating on this dead horse (horrible expression to be used by a vegetarian; http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/10/animals-better-than-men.html).
So where do I find myself in all this? I haven't been participating in church as I used to. Perhaps I've been more worried thinking what I could do rather than doing anything. Both FAPC (http://www.fapc.org/) and ULC (http://www.themonastery.org/) -- both of which I'm a member of -- have several opportunities to serve God, but I'm not taking advantage of any (except from being asked to help during service once in a while). I'm such a waste.
