love, sex & tattoos: kinky fucking love

I guess that if I want to finish these three ideas -- love, sex and tattoos.

1. love, sex & tattoos: ink
   http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/11/love-sex-tattoos-ink.html
2. love, sex & tattoos: sex junkie
   http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/11/love-sex-tattoos-sex-junkie.html

Hence here's the conclusion -- my ideas of love, how I feel love.

I decided to change this post. If you care to see what I had posted here, which I had posted about five days ago, go to http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/11/something-i-wrote-on-someone-elses-blog.html.

Love in general, this human emotion referred to as love's been difficult for me have and share. From an early age, I wondered if my parents really loved me regardless how often I was told so, but my father dared to prove me wrong (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/10/my-fathers-last-betrayal.html).The only persons who loved me without a doubt were my maternal grandparents (both dead) who taught me the core Christian values that I hold dearly to.

When most of us hear the word "love," we think of a relationship between a man and a woman. In my case, love came early (first grade, age 5). Each year I was in "love" with a different girl. Junior high school was no exception and neither was high school, but I was always the ugly duckling or the kid who couldn't afford gifts and crap as much as other kids. College was different as I literally had girls to choose from. It was a shocking surprise, but I enjoyed this change. I gained confidence, but this hallow confidence's not love. Women come and go, yet remaining lonesome for no one to care or hold. Love's a nasty feeling. Being in love's much worse.

The only place where I've been able find love's in the presence of my children. They're my life and soul. I'd be with them till the day I die, but first I need to leave them a future that can take care of them financially.

Ironically enough, as a bad cosmic joke, life is merely sick and twisted forms of LOVE, SEX and TATTOOS.

something I wrote on someone else's blog

Love is simple -- unconditional and conditional, true and false, real and a sham, part-time and full-time.

1. It's that unconditional love that a parent has for his/her child.
   
   
2. It's that unconditional love of that of child to a parent -- at least we hope so.
   
   
3. It's a chemical reaction in the brain that triggers the need of being satisfied by a person, the sexual attraction to that person and remaining with that person. It's the CONDITIONAL love between two people as long as that satisfaction is met. Visit http://bigthink.com/ideas/18776 (Helen Fisher Explains Why Casual Sex Doesn't Exist, Big Think).
   
   
4. Being this blog part of the church, the answer would be the love of God for us -- as the father (God) loves his children (us) unconditionally when we make him happy, cry or angry. See number 1.
   
   
5. In the case of loving others, my take would be on being satisfied by something that they can do for us. See number 3.
   
   Love for others (a stranger worse off) is never and will never be unconditional because of our greed, selfishness, needs to be satisfied, anger and everything else that makes us hunters (humans) especially in NYC. See number 1.

conditional love

I've been reading an article several times called "God is Love" (http://www.allaboutgod.com/god-is-love.htm) not because it's hard to understand, but rather because I like read it. The following is my response and/or interpretation of such article.

LOVE: "an intense affection for another person based on familial or personal ties"
-- American Heritage Dictionary

This definition explains why I've gone through several relationships though out my life.

We're like vampires sucking whatever that other person's willing to give us and to fulfill us with till we exhaust those resources. After doing so, we grow tired and uninterested of that person. We simply fall out of love. In most cases, we then look for someone else who can fulfill some other need that we may have. We prey and hunt for love.

Considering this, the only persons we might never stop loving are the extensions of our lives -- that part of each of us that'd keep living after we're dead -- our own children (well at least, most of the time). Maybe our children never finish fulfilling us or we might simply truly "love" them. In any case, the attachment that we've got with our children could be the purest form of love -- the purest emotion -- that we might ever experience.

Understanding a parent's love, we might somewhat understand how God loves us. It's still incomprehensive to us though since God's love depends on no condition at all, hence being eternal and honestly pure.

a picture that says it all

I found this picture I found somewhere that says it all.