too much for my own good

Maybe I analyze religion, its beliefs and practices too much for my own good (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/06/nietzsche-vs-gott.html). Maybe my faith is based on the philosophy and sociology of Christianity more than just what my grandmother taught me as a child (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/05/remembering-my-grandmother.html). In the past almost two years that I've gone to church non-stop (08/2008 to now), I've been reading many more papers on Christianity much more than how much I used to (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2009/01/beginning-before-experiment-circa-2006.html). It makes me wonder if I'm a "real" Christian or merely a reader of theology or simple fool lying to myself. Well only time would tell.

BEGINNING, BEFORE EXPERIMENT (circa 2006)

0. Understanding and reading about other religions including islam and krishna (my own books) for several years
1. Installing 'Bible Time' (http://www.bibletime.info/) for the 'Sword' project (http://www.crosswire.org/), on Kubuntu at home and a Java application on Windows at work, visiting several on-line Bibles
  1.1. Also as a Java application, BibleDesktop (http://www.crosswire.org/bibledesktop/).
2. Listening to Joel Osteen, podcast subscription
3. Listening to 'Geeks for God' (technology to make a better church), podcast subscription
4. Watching 700 Club, subscriptions to CBN emails and my own account, podcast subscription and TV
5. Reading 'Charisma' and 'Ministry Today