too much for my own good

Maybe I analyze religion, its beliefs and practices too much for my own good (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/06/nietzsche-vs-gott.html). Maybe my faith is based on the philosophy and sociology of Christianity more than just what my grandmother taught me as a child (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2010/05/remembering-my-grandmother.html). In the past almost two years that I've gone to church non-stop (08/2008 to now), I've been reading many more papers on Christianity much more than how much I used to (http://project05952381.blogspot.com/2009/01/beginning-before-experiment-circa-2006.html). It makes me wonder if I'm a "real" Christian or merely a reader of theology or simple fool lying to myself. Well only time would tell.

fire Bible banned from school - tangle.com

Some times the so-called Freedom of Speech goes a bit too far.

no longer enough

As much as religion (going to church, Bible study, being an active or some what active member of the congregation, volunteering and even becoming a member of FAPC) has helped me tame my personal demons, the reality is that my anxiety hasn't diminished. Sometimes I feel like my level of anxiety has worsened in the last year or two or that the dosage of my medicine is no longer enough to stabilize the chemistry of my brain (acquired resistance to medication or drug) and therefore its functions. Then again my doctor doesn't agree and he's prescribed again the same dosage for my medicines.

BEGINNING, BEFORE EXPERIMENT (circa 2006)

0. Understanding and reading about other religions including islam and krishna (my own books) for several years
1. Installing 'Bible Time' (http://www.bibletime.info/) for the 'Sword' project (http://www.crosswire.org/), on Kubuntu at home and a Java application on Windows at work, visiting several on-line Bibles
  1.1. Also as a Java application, BibleDesktop (http://www.crosswire.org/bibledesktop/).
2. Listening to Joel Osteen, podcast subscription
3. Listening to 'Geeks for God' (technology to make a better church), podcast subscription
4. Watching 700 Club, subscriptions to CBN emails and my own account, podcast subscription and TV
5. Reading 'Charisma' and 'Ministry Today